It's Sabotage

Let's be real here. I let this blog down. I let my readers down. Most of all I let myself down. I don't need to blog about weight loss by any means but I do need to do something about it. 

I haven't been pushing myself. I have been letting myself have treat after treat. I haven't gained anything back (thank goodness) but I haven't moved on the scale at all either. 

So why do we do it? Why do we self-sabotage? Why do we stop pushing after we did so much work?

I honestly wish I knew. I wish I could stay on that mind track of only clean foods, no sugar, no candy, no indulging. I am sure my lack of will power says something about me or my past or to get all Freud on everyone, my childhood. It happens. It happens to everyone. I have seen people who have lost hundreds of pounds slip back in that spiral of bad habits. It sucks. 

There is good news though! You can stop it. I can stop it! I recognized that I am not doing what I need to be doing to achieve the goals I have. So each step from here when I pick up that doughnut I need to stay to myself, will that doughnut get you where you want to be in a year from no and usually the answer will be no. Unless they come out with a super weight loss doughnut, just one doughnut and I am down a whole size. (Someone please come up with that.) 

Seriously some people can eat whatever they want without thinking about it. I unfortunately am not one of those people. I have stomach issues and I gain weight just by thinking of pizza. So each bite, each swallow needs to be conscious of what is going into my body. Now the next person who sees me eating ice cream better not even be like "but you said.....". We can all have a cheat meal but the problem is letting the "cheat" meal turn into a cheat week or a cheat month. You need to learn when to stop. 

So here is to making more of an effort on meal planning, food prep and avoiding that junk food. I hope you all join me in making some positive food choices from this post on. 

29 Before 30

A few years ago when I was working on my old blog I had a list of things I wanted to do within a year, from a birthday to a birthday. I did a lot of those things on that list but did not come close to completing it with moving away and letting go of the accountability of the blog. So now I decided to do a new list, a “29 before 30” list. My birthday was a few weeks ago so I am not too far out to accomplish these goals. So here is my list my list of 29 things to do before March 5, 2014.

29 Before 30

1. Reach two major weight loss goals
2. Go to Baltimore
3. Go on vacation more than a state away
4. Plan a Foundation for Hope event that I came up with
5. Invent a cupcake flavor
6. Bake a Pie (yes seriously still haven't baked that pie...)
7. Reconnect with 10 old friends
8. Dedicate a day to Random Acts of Kindness
9. Do a 5K
10. See a TV show Taping
11. Read More Often (Try for a book a month)
12. Take a trip to revisit Ithaca
13. Take a crafting class
14. Learn to edit things better on my blog
15. Pay off hospital debt
16. Go to a Senator’s game
17. Go to a concert
18. Explore my own city (area) more
19. Send a secret to Post Secret
20. Tell more people how much they mean to me
21. Go to the movies alone
22. Try 12 new restaurants
23. See a play
24. Get on a better night time/wake up routine
25. Try vegan for a day
26. Try more pins instead of just pinning them
27. Try something new with my hair
28. Volunteer for something outside of the Foundation for Hope
29. Be happy with myself and where I am in life

Next year I think turning 30 would be a little more tolerable if I achieved some if not all these goals. This time I need to do and not just have the ideas. So bring on the last year of my twenties it has been good but maybe thirties will be even better.  

This list is open to anyone who wants to try things with me and I would love to hear what goals you have before your next birthday! 

I'm Bringing Bloggin' Back

Ahhh blogworld, it’s been a long time since we have been together. I love blogging but I don’t do it. Weird right? A few years ago I used the blog forum to get over something tough in my life and although I don’t regret and still love The Break-up Bucket List  but it was definitely time to move on and start fresh because that is no longer a part of my life anymore. I’m still pushing myself to try new things but I am no longer in that place that I once was.

Therefore, coming back to blogging I had to ask myself what type of blog did I want and the only thing that makes sense at this point is a lifestyle blog. I wanted to show the journey of dealing with weight loss and depression and that you can make changes to a healthy positive life. I wanted to be able to speak candidly about the obstacles that happen when trying to make a transformation.

I also wanted to show women especially with PCOS that we can lose weight but I wanted to show what a struggle it is. A lot of blogs are after the fact. I really wanted to document the journey. This could be me putting my foot in my mouth and end up not losing a pound after what I lost so far but what’s a better way to be accountable for my actions then putting it out there for the world or at least my immediate group of peers to see.

This blog will be about all that and more.  I plan to do healthy recipes (and let’s be real not so healthy because we all have a cheat day), crafts, adventures, reviews on weight loss products and foods and the highs and lows of everything.

So I hope you take the time to read my blog to follow and support my journey. If you have any suggestions that you would like to hear about feel free to email me or comment below.